The Guardian, The Angel, and The Goddess

For decades, Jim carried the badge, sworn to protect and to fight back the darkness that preyed on others. But what happens when the darkness takes root inside the protector himself?

This raw and deeply personal memoir traces the descent of a warrior into the abyss of trauma, rage, and despair—and the unexpected redemption that followed. Haunted by violence, betrayal, and the weight of lives he could not save, Jim faced the same demons that claim the lives of hundreds of law enforcement officers each year. When pills and silence failed him, he stood on the edge of surrender.

But salvation came in unlikely forms: a German Shepherd named Lucifer, whose loyalty grounded him when nothing else could, and a Siberian Husky named Freya, whose untamed joy taught him how to live again. Through them, Jim discovered that strength is not found in standing alone, but in walking with those who choose to stand beside us.

Blending memoir, philosophy, and myth, The Guardian, The Angel, and The Goddess is a story of falling and rising, of wolves and gods, of darkness and light. More than a tale of survival, it is a testament to resilience, loyalty, and the power of love to pull us back from the edge.